I haven't updated, nor checked on, this blog in over 3 months.
This in itself is for one reason only, because I'm too lazy to keep it going. There's the truth people, I have been more worried about how I'm doing on the Xbox360 instead of updating this blog.
This is where I change. This is the purpose of this post.
Over this summer, I'm going to change. I'm doing more than just updating this blog more.
I'm going to change who I am.
I haven't updated this blog because I'm too lazy to keep it going. I haven't updated this blog because people tell me "nobody reads it anyways" and my confidence is so broken, I believe them.
Well, I'm changing all of that.
Instead of being lazy, I'm going to be the go-getter I always needed to be. I'm going to try and live my life and do the things I need and want to do, instead of wondering how cool it would be if I did them while playing NBA on the Xbox.
Instead of having no self-confidence, I'm going to figure out who I am as a man, and because of what my morals stand for, I'm going to let them dictate who I am, not how other people value me.
Instead of never having an interesting thing to say, I'm going to live my life to where I'm always active, and because of this, I have a hard time running out of things to say.
I'm going to do the hard work, the work that has needed to be done for the past 4-5 years now. I'm going to be my own counselor, and work through my problems by myself.
How will I do this? By living my life through a simple question, one that in which if I can answer with full sincerity, I will live my life with rock-solid confidence, with the inspiration to do what I want to do, and the drive to push through any of life's hardest tasks.
The question is this:
"How do I need to live my life so that I can feel strong, powerful, confident, excited, and inspired, regardless of how people respond to me?"
If I can actually find the answer to this question, and be able to answer it with full sincerity, I will leave myself a much better man than I ever was before.
By the end of this week, I will have another sports page to work on, one that I will seek out myself, and instead of being lazy, saying "Why do today what I can do tomorrow", I'm going to drive myself to become better. Like my father always said, and something I should have taken to heart much earlier, I'm going to live my life saying "Why do tomorrow what I can do today".
This will be the hardest thing I have ever done in my entire life, but if I can achieve the success I'm grasping to find, I'm going to live a much happier, and much more fulfilling life.